Monday, November 9, 2009

Calm

I don't really have a lot to share today. I just wanted to let you know that for the past two weeks I have been in a place of calm. I told my Al-Anon sponsor the same thing in our talk on the phone yesterday. She told me that, knowing me, she knew that I wasn't running away or ignoring any major issues. That acknowledgment by her felt good. I am just in a place of calm, not the calm before the storm that I used to imagine it as, but a place of real calm. No issues are disturbing me right now. It is a time of rest and renewal of my energy and emotional health. Breaks are good for you when you are a survivor. You can't always be working on your issues. There is a whole other world to explore and other people to enjoy contact with. I no longer feel guilty for the breaks that I sometimes take. I deserve the time off to enjoy life. So do you.

During this break, I am still going to my Al-Anon meeting and my Grief class. Even they haven't brought up any issues for me the past two weeks. I know that could change later today or even tomorrow and I could be back in full growth/moving forward mode again. Until then I will enjoy the fiction books that I am reading, the movies that I have been watching and any other type of play that comes my way. Part of my journey means enjoying the breaks when they come along. All of life doesn't have to be hard. Enjoy.
Patricia

16 comments:

angrysoberdude said...

I like that. There is a whole other world to explore and other people to enjoy contact with.

It is not fun place for me to be when my world only contains me.

Patricia Singleton said...

Angry Sober Dude, as an incest survivor, so much of my life has been about the incest issues. It is nice to know that that isn't all there is. You are not just your experiences. There is so much more if you take the time to look.

Marj aka Thriver said...

What a wonderful, healthy, balanced post and perspective, Patricia! Good for you! And I like how you put, "I could be back in full growth/moving forward mode again." I can choose to look at the hard-work periods as "growth/moving forward" mode. Great message!

mountainmama said...

what a comforting post. sounds very peaceful. i'm happy for you that you're able to enjoy this time and not spend it waiting for the other shoe to drop. at the same time, knowing tomorrow may not feel this way yet not panicking about that. when things are going well, i used to feel uneasy about it, didn't want to get too comfortable. nowadays i feel better and don't find myself looking for something to go wrong as much as i used to. this is such a good feeling to work towards. just being able to live in the moment and enjoy life.

thank you for sharing this feeling~

Patricia Singleton said...

Mountain Mama, you are welcome. I wanted to write something about where I am right now even though not much seems to be going on.

Patricia Singleton said...

Marj, thank you. It is always nice when these calm spells come along.

sarah said...

what a great place to be in. I hope and pray it lasts for a loooooong time. You deserve the calm, the peace, the serenity.

Patricia Singleton said...

Sarah, thank you, so do you.

speck of dust said...

Really love this post Patricia and am so happy for you enjoying your peaceful time x

Patricia Singleton said...

Speck of Dust, thank you. I am glad that you enjoyed the article. I am enjoying this quiet time.

Colleen said...

I enjoy those calm times too. It is wonderful to be able to just enjoy life and live it! We have spent a lifetime working on our issues, we all deserve a break! Blessings!

Patricia Singleton said...

Colleen, as I grow in recovery and healing, the calm comes more often. I am glad that you are experiencing the same thing.

Marj aka Thriver said...

You know, calm is a good message for survivors, too, if you feel like entering this for the Nov. blog carnival. I'm hosting it this month at my blog on Thursday.

I hope you are still enjoying your calm space.

Patricia Singleton said...

Marj, I will enter this article in the November blog carnival. Thanks for reminding me.

River of Karma said...

Hey Patricia,
Been awhile since I dropped by your haunt here.

Can you believe all the people who are buying into the 2012 scam?


Cheers,
ROK

Patricia Singleton said...

River of Karma, only time will tell about 2012. Welcome back.